WHY

All this time... I though it will come to an end, an end like i wishes 2.. but i gues not every wishes i made come true, maybe i wish to hard, and i wish it in a wrong place, But dont answer my heart if it ment nothing, Coz from the start u know how i afraid to get hurt again.. Why u love me but u dont want me... Why...

The Past, Present and Future

Three things that have connection to each other. lots of things i wanna share about this three things.. but.. later maybe..

Forgive n Forgiven

Maybe i cant act or speak like an angel, maybe i never know how to express what i had inside, but its not right for u to judge me so unkindly, after all the time, after what we ever had before, its make me sad to heard it.

Lets forgive and forgiven, so the memories will stay beautiful.

Maybe i do u wrong, maybe once or two i hurt your heart, but lets close all the hurts and try to looked all the beautiful times we had back then, let me and let u close all the stories with open heart, no anger and no shallow.

Sarah McLachan - Answer...

I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
While you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
‘Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
And when the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
A place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
‘Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
And when the stars have all burned out
You'll still be burning so bright
Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind


For someone... in my heart

Manic Street - The Everlasting

The gap that grows between our lives
The gap our parents never had
Stop those thoughts control your mind
Replace the things that you despise
Oh youre old I hear you say
It doesnt mean that I dont care
I dont believe in it anymore
Pathetic acts for a worthless cause

In the beginning when we were winning
When our smiles were genuine
In the beginning when we were winning
When our smiles were genuine
But now unforgiven the everlasting
Everlasting

The world is full of refugees
Theyre just like you and just like me
But as people we have a choice
To end the void with all its force
So dont forget or dont pretend
Its all the same now in the end
It was set in a different life
Destroys my days and haunts my nights?

HHmmm...I liked this song alot..

And a youth said, "Speak to us of Friendship."

Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.
And he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace.
When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the "nay" in your own mind, nor do you withhold the "ay."
And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, you grieve not;
For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.
And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?
Seek him always with hours to live.
For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.
Khalil Gibran

Famous Quotations

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity...

----Forgot the writters------

Asa

Dawai Hati bersenandung,
dalam rangkaian nada jiwa,
Semburat rona tlah redamkan pucatnya jiwa,

Bagai irama yang teduhkan sukma,
memenuhi cangkir jiwaku,
lambungkan angan menuju mimpi.

Confuse

Feelin that makes me wonder... can it be exist and can it be true... i dont want to have this feelin, i avoid every reason to fall in love.. but guess i couldn't lie to my heart. Still i found it hard to admit, hard to believe.

Wet Wet Wet - Julia Says

Wet Wet Wet - Julia Says Lyrics

Here we go again, thru the backstreets of my mind
It seems my life was standing still
Who's sorry now, it's funny how I didn't know it

Here we go again, fighting things we never win
It seems our love was standing still I'm sorry now
It's funny how I don't feel the love
I just hear the words, julia says
She doesn't know what it's all about
She doesn't seem to care at all
Open your eyes and see
Love hurts
I won't be fooled again, looking for the dreams I couldn't find
The dreams for me were left behind
I'm sorry now, it's funny how
I don't feel the love
I just hear the words, julia says

She doesn't know what it's all about
She doesn't seem to care at all
Open your eyes and see, love hurts
Julia please, open your eyes and see

Julia wants to be on her own
Sharing her thoughts, she is all alone
Dreaming of the things she wants to be
Where julia don't belong
Julia said
She doesn't know what it's all about
She doesn't know, c'mon julia
She doesn't know, what it's all about
Julia... ... ...

THINK BEFORE YOU ACT!!!!!

My Boutique

My Boutique...

After a few considerations, and having my background as a shopaholic... hahahaha, as many of my friends said that in spite of i save my money on peoples boutique and gave them money, why don't i open mine anyway, hhhmmmm.. i though that's an good idea, so starting last month, i prepare all for my boutique

Finally at April 3rd 2007, i open my own Boutique, i used MARVEL APPAREL for my Boutique name, i have my own reason for choosing the name.. yup its a secret.. hehehe... This is my first business and after few weeks i kindly had a bit of trouble in managing my time, between Go to work, manage my boutique, for my friends and for me, and socialite. I guess i need to learn more.. But its fun thou... i have my time full of good stuff, i really don't have time to think negative, remembering i just broke up with a man i knew for 3 years.. hehehehe.. maybe i'am a very happy broken hearted person. hahahahhahaha...

Wish me luck with my Boutique OK..

All Him In my Eyes

all him in my eyes,

he think about the future, not stuck by the past,
he fight for his dream, and not easily give up,
he pay attentions more to the world for what happening,
he have a strong character,so no one will neglact him,
he wants to be exist,
but he also one loving and patience heart,
never put underestimated me,
cares for what's going on in my days,
needs my hand to achieve what he want,
needs my love to fullfill his life,
and in his eyes there's no promises,
just his warmth look and the truth.

New Home.. New Journey

Dua hari yang lalu aku pindah ke sebuah rumah kontrakan dengan temanku, sebenarnya kami berempat, semuanya perempuan, awalnya aku dan temenku Novi memang berencana mencari rumah kontrakan, dengan maksud belajar mengurus rumah sendiri, kecuali untuk mencuci baju dan piring *in this case is be'coz my hand allergic to detergent or washing soap-maklum tangan wanita karir.. hehehe..

Karena usia temanku terpaut 3 tahun dari aku jadi aku maklum kalo pada kenyataanya memang harus aku yang incharge terhadap semuanya mulai dari pra pindahan, tapi ternyata semua di luar dugaanku, aku ga tahu kalo begini rasanya...
And suddenly aku ngerasa bertambah umur 15 tahun hiks hiks...

Ga kebayang ngurus rumah itu ternyata susah apalagi as a person incharge, aku harus ngeberesin rumah itu dari depan sampai belakang dengan mulut yang terus mengomando, membereskan barang2 yang BBBuuuaannyaaakkkk buanget, tiga hari ini yang kulakukan hanya berangkat kerja pulang kerja beres2, cari bibi untuk bantuin, memperbaiki kerusakan, plus sempet2nya dicurhatin ama temenku yang baru putus selama 3 jam ... gubrak..... ( do i sound like a mother with 17 children????? )
n dari kemarin temanku sms dari rumah dengan sms2 yang ga penting, seperti keran rusak pompa rusak,,, ( Cant they fixed it without me??? hiks )

Tapi apa boleh buat dicoba saja,, hanya saja detik ini, baru aja aku jadii kepengen nangis, karena baru ja temenku SMS bilang kalau dia lihat tikus kecil di dapur,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,!!!!!!!!
i think i'll pass thiss one, i cant stand of that animal.... menjijikan padahal semuanya sudah bersih........ help me....

An excerpt...

You have brains in your head,
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer your self any direction you choose.
You're on your own.
And you know what you know.
And your the person
who'll decide where to go

Taken from "oh, The Places You'll Go"
Written By Dr. Seuss

Don't

Can’t Remember the time - KD

Can’t remember a time, I didn’t Love you
Can’t remember a day when you were not on my mind
Can’t remember a dream that was’nt of you no I, oh I

I can’t remember a time I didn’t need you
Can’t think back to one moment not spent thingking of you
Can’t remember when my eyes didn’t see you

It’s true,,,

A song to stand up...

When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When you’re distraught
And in pain without anyone

When you keep crying out to be safe
but nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't
Find your way home
You can get there alone, it’s ok
Once you say

And if you keep falling down
Don’t you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on steadfastly
And you’ll find what you need to prevail
Once you say

And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don’t be afraid
There’s nothing you can’t face
And should they tell you
You’ll never pull through
Don’t hesitate
Stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
Can stand up once again
And I'll live one more day, and I
I can make it through the rain
Oh yes you can
You’re gonna make it through the rain.

"Mariah Carey - Through the Rain"

THANK YOU GOD

Kemarin teman milisku mem-post kata-kata bijak tentang indahnya bersyukur, dan... aku cukup terhenyak karena menyadari kalau sekarang aku semakin jarang mengucap syukur dan terima kasih kepada-Nya.

Memahami arti bersyukur... biasanya saat kita menerima sesuatu, kita harus berterima kasih atas apa yang kita terima, Bersyukur sebenarnya adalah hal biasa, sedari kecil pasti kita diajarkan untuk belajar mengucap syukur dalam bentuk doa, baik pada saat kita makan atau menerima sesuatu pemberian dari orang tua kita.

Rasa bersyukur sebenarnya ditujukan pada Tuhan YME, pencipta langit, atas karunia nya terhadap manusia. sebuah bentuk rasa terima kasih seorang umat pada Tuhannya.

Namun tanpa sadar seiring pembelajaranku menuju kedewasaan dimana dalam perjalanan kadang kutemukan ketidakadilan, tak jarang harus kecewa, menemukan kesesakan, kemelut hingga tersakiti, semua hal yang acapkali membuat jiwa dikuasai amarah karena semua tidak berjalan sesuai keinginan kita, ketidakpuasan dan nafsu, sehingga muncullah sebentuk kekecewaan pada Tuhan; kenapa bisa begini, kenapa bisa begitu, harusnya ga seperti ini? akhirnya hanya bisa menyalahkan dan mengeluh.

Aku menyadari kalau ternyata aku telah banyak melupakan kasih-Nya, padahal disetiap nafas yang kuhembuskan-pun adalah Anugrah dari-Nya, bagaimana jika tiba-tiba Dia menghentikan nafasku, sanggupkah kupertanggungjawabkan semua perbuatanku? sanggupkah aku menahan panas api neraka? Udara yang kuhirup adalah sebagian dari bentuk cinta-Nya padaku, setiap pagi aku masih bisa membuka mataku dan bernafas, Dia masih mengijinkan kita tinggal dan menikmati keindahan ciptaan-Nya.

Kenapa kerap kusalahkan Allah-ku atas semua ketidakmampuanku berpijak di bumi ini? tidakkah kasih yang diberikan kepadaku lebih dari hidup? tanah yang kupijak, udara yang kuhirup, air yang melepaskan dahagaku, langit yang menerangiku, bumi dan segala isinya??

Allah telah memberi banyak kepadaku; keluarga yang menyayangiku, tubuh yang sehat, perlindungan dan rasa aman, hal-hal yang terkadang silap di mataku... dan jika kini kubuka mata dan hatiku baik2, sebenarnya aku bisa merasakan betapa lengkap hidupku, begitu banyak orang menyayangi dan menyertaiku. Tak pernah Allah Bapa membiarkanku sendiri dalam perjalananku.

Ketika aku 'jatuh' aku tidak pernah mengenal putus asa, karena Dia memberiku kekuatan; Ketika mata ragaku tak bisa awas, maka Dia memberiku mata bathin sebagai gantinya; Jika hatiku butuh naungan dan kasih Dia berikanku cinta. Selalu dan selalu Dia menjagaku, dalam tawa dan tangisku, dalam kebimbangan juga resahku.

Terimakasih Ya Allah atas semua Berkat dan Karunia-Mu atasku.

.....

Have U ever feels Happy and Sad at one time? Have U ever felt in love and broken at one time...?
Have u ever been in love?, thinkin of one until it takes your breath away?, filled your head only with his figure? Can only think of all wonderfull moments.

Well I felt it now…

How could one can trumble my head and heart so as my days only with simply kind of way, his way. How could i fall in like this? untill i made a wish upon a star, please made him mine forever, and please let me be his last woman on earth.

Then I realize this love I have is difficult, and I have to give up. I cant remember how many do I shed my tears, when everything finnaly comes to one point “point of no return”
Please someone explain it to me? Take this pain away from me, i want this love badly, but i cant have it, i just couldn't!!
Why i'm trap in a game called Destiny,
all this time i though i was the rule of my own life but guess i'm not.

Why there's love if i cant have it, if I cant touch it, why He lettin me knows him? shared days with him? why He made him fallin in love with me at the first time? why He allows this feeling grows, yet still I can't say Yes I do, though entire cells in my body, my blood, my brain and my heart screams from it..