That's what friends are for

And I never thought I'd feel this way

And as far as I'm concerned

I'm glad I got the chance to say

That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away

Well then close your eyes and try

To feel the way we do today

And then if you can remember ...

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me

And now there's so much more I see

And so by the way I thank you

And then for the times when we're apart

Well then close your eyes and know

These words are coming from my heart

And then if you can remember ...

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That's what friends are for

In good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for

God..

When I looked at my past, i seen one soul so empty, dark mind filled with emotional and ego

I was a selfish person and full of anger, have no patience at all, what worst of it is that i do things that are not right, all things that not appropriate, and i cant count how many sins i made, the wrong desicion that makes my life darker n darker.

Thats my past. all that i have is not mine, my laugh is not from the heart, its all shadowed and blur, everything i do is a mess

Then in one point, I realized that i'm just a human, God creates me and gave me a change to live and find the meaning of lilfe. God put me in His attemp, i cried so hard and i almost cant figured how i escape from all this. But maybe thats what God wants me to see. For me to come back to the ground. Start a new life, to do things He likes and to worship HIm. I'm nobody, and i dont wanna live my life like a zombie anymore.

Thank You God for givin me another change to lilve my life, to struggle it with a good soul, to adore You. Here i'm giving you my life, fill it anyway You want me, Use me as Your tools. Enter my life once again, I admit you as as my Guardian and savior. Help me God so I can be a human that You smile.

Pikiran hamba

Tak lebih dari sekedar hamba.. bernafas dan hidup dari kaki dunia.. penuh kotoran dan air mata.. hanya mencoba bertahan, dalam penatnya angan-angan yang kian pupus.. Tak lebih dari sekedar hamba.. mengabdi pada bumi... mengharap sesuap bekal berharap mimpi jadi nyata..

The Ocean

I'm heading to the ocean,

i don't know where the wave will flow me.

I know i'm scared but i'm ready to have my journey across the ocean,

no matter the storm may knock me down,

or the wind can tear my boat,

or my boat crashed to the rocks.

I believe i can make it somehow,

and my boat will sail all the way,

trough the ocean..

cause i know i have you as my partner..

It Takes what it takes

You throw everythings u have,

for someone you think good enough for u???

ooo so stupid or are u too idiot???

pushing your own luck for what they called love????

man.. where is your mind.

you had everything.. i called it live n good..

why u choose to stuck with it???

u said "It takes What it Takes"

how silly is that in this time of life???

enjoy it!! suck with it... hope u happy!!

mirror

Some feeling can be express and some feeling just cant be express

Cos u don't know where to put the feeling and the shape of it

I learn that i don't always get what i want n what i need, i tried to leave it in God Hand, cos i know He'll find the way for me, and in this universe i just follow the life He has given me, and tried to be good, though i know i'm not His good mankind.

What i felt is like staring at something u like, but u cant have it by any reason, and i tried to be adult, not crying it outloud just silence and letting it go, i know i have something that i cant let go not because of something new i liked. And for sure its difficult cos i'm a type of a person that always have what i want without consider the effect of it, but now i have to learn to accept what i have and not being such a selfish person anymore..

Time 4 me

You know the color of Grey and Black? thats my color right know, despite i'm happy with my job now, but i' m not happy with my life right now, and nobody sees it or even people that close to me...

Need my time alone to find whats beneath my self, find who is me, and what i wanna do with my life. i just wanna be "alone" not that i'm selfish, but i dont want to think about anything then my job, i dont wanna talk bout love, dont wanna care about hearts, i'm so sick of that. how i able to love ones if i cant figure my self. its not that i'm evil or mean, but here i'm crying my soul, i need a space for me.

After i broke up with my boyfriend last year i promise my self that i wanna be alone for a while, till i can find my self, but it turns up i messing my promise. I tried to follow the flow, but i guess it makes me uncomfortable now. It blocks every turn i want to make, and somehow i tied with it.

Is it my mistake? what have i done? why i keep doing my mistake.. i just dont wanna tied with anything and anybody right now, can i just be alone with my world now? can i get a room for my self? can anyone not pushing me for what i dont want now? is it to big to asked? i'm sorry if i make a mistake or let anyone down, but i only have this moment, this one time in my life to think of my self, and can i wish it to came true? I just tired and i need a freedom of my self...