You know the color of Grey and Black? thats my color right know, despite i'm happy with my job now, but i' m not happy with my life right now, and nobody sees it or even people that close to me...
Need my time alone to find whats beneath my self, find who is me, and what i wanna do with my life. i just wanna be "alone" not that i'm selfish, but i dont want to think about anything then my job, i dont wanna talk bout love, dont wanna care about hearts, i'm so sick of that. how i able to love ones if i cant figure my self. its not that i'm evil or mean, but here i'm crying my soul, i need a space for me.
After i broke up with my boyfriend last year i promise my self that i wanna be alone for a while, till i can find my self, but it turns up i messing my promise. I tried to follow the flow, but i guess it makes me uncomfortable now. It blocks every turn i want to make, and somehow i tied with it.
Is it my mistake? what have i done? why i keep doing my mistake.. i just dont wanna tied with anything and anybody right now, can i just be alone with my world now? can i get a room for my self? can anyone not pushing me for what i dont want now? is it to big to asked? i'm sorry if i make a mistake or let anyone down, but i only have this moment, this one time in my life to think of my self, and can i wish it to came true? I just tired and i need a freedom of my self...
