Hello Again

Hehhehe.. its been a long time i dont check my blog.. but my head is empty so i dont have anything to write on..

That's what friends are for

And I never thought I'd feel this way

And as far as I'm concerned

I'm glad I got the chance to say

That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away

Well then close your eyes and try

To feel the way we do today

And then if you can remember ...

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me

And now there's so much more I see

And so by the way I thank you

And then for the times when we're apart

Well then close your eyes and know

These words are coming from my heart

And then if you can remember ...

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That's what friends are for

In good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for

God..

When I looked at my past, i seen one soul so empty, dark mind filled with emotional and ego

I was a selfish person and full of anger, have no patience at all, what worst of it is that i do things that are not right, all things that not appropriate, and i cant count how many sins i made, the wrong desicion that makes my life darker n darker.

Thats my past. all that i have is not mine, my laugh is not from the heart, its all shadowed and blur, everything i do is a mess

Then in one point, I realized that i'm just a human, God creates me and gave me a change to live and find the meaning of lilfe. God put me in His attemp, i cried so hard and i almost cant figured how i escape from all this. But maybe thats what God wants me to see. For me to come back to the ground. Start a new life, to do things He likes and to worship HIm. I'm nobody, and i dont wanna live my life like a zombie anymore.

Thank You God for givin me another change to lilve my life, to struggle it with a good soul, to adore You. Here i'm giving you my life, fill it anyway You want me, Use me as Your tools. Enter my life once again, I admit you as as my Guardian and savior. Help me God so I can be a human that You smile.

Pikiran hamba

Tak lebih dari sekedar hamba.. bernafas dan hidup dari kaki dunia.. penuh kotoran dan air mata.. hanya mencoba bertahan, dalam penatnya angan-angan yang kian pupus.. Tak lebih dari sekedar hamba.. mengabdi pada bumi... mengharap sesuap bekal berharap mimpi jadi nyata..

The Ocean

I'm heading to the ocean,

i don't know where the wave will flow me.

I know i'm scared but i'm ready to have my journey across the ocean,

no matter the storm may knock me down,

or the wind can tear my boat,

or my boat crashed to the rocks.

I believe i can make it somehow,

and my boat will sail all the way,

trough the ocean..

cause i know i have you as my partner..

It Takes what it takes

You throw everythings u have,

for someone you think good enough for u???

ooo so stupid or are u too idiot???

pushing your own luck for what they called love????

man.. where is your mind.

you had everything.. i called it live n good..

why u choose to stuck with it???

u said "It takes What it Takes"

how silly is that in this time of life???

enjoy it!! suck with it... hope u happy!!

mirror

Some feeling can be express and some feeling just cant be express

Cos u don't know where to put the feeling and the shape of it

I learn that i don't always get what i want n what i need, i tried to leave it in God Hand, cos i know He'll find the way for me, and in this universe i just follow the life He has given me, and tried to be good, though i know i'm not His good mankind.

What i felt is like staring at something u like, but u cant have it by any reason, and i tried to be adult, not crying it outloud just silence and letting it go, i know i have something that i cant let go not because of something new i liked. And for sure its difficult cos i'm a type of a person that always have what i want without consider the effect of it, but now i have to learn to accept what i have and not being such a selfish person anymore..

Time 4 me

You know the color of Grey and Black? thats my color right know, despite i'm happy with my job now, but i' m not happy with my life right now, and nobody sees it or even people that close to me...

Need my time alone to find whats beneath my self, find who is me, and what i wanna do with my life. i just wanna be "alone" not that i'm selfish, but i dont want to think about anything then my job, i dont wanna talk bout love, dont wanna care about hearts, i'm so sick of that. how i able to love ones if i cant figure my self. its not that i'm evil or mean, but here i'm crying my soul, i need a space for me.

After i broke up with my boyfriend last year i promise my self that i wanna be alone for a while, till i can find my self, but it turns up i messing my promise. I tried to follow the flow, but i guess it makes me uncomfortable now. It blocks every turn i want to make, and somehow i tied with it.

Is it my mistake? what have i done? why i keep doing my mistake.. i just dont wanna tied with anything and anybody right now, can i just be alone with my world now? can i get a room for my self? can anyone not pushing me for what i dont want now? is it to big to asked? i'm sorry if i make a mistake or let anyone down, but i only have this moment, this one time in my life to think of my self, and can i wish it to came true? I just tired and i need a freedom of my self...

My O My

Life is a journey, from the day u were born till the day u closed your eyes eternally.

And in your journey its your decision to choose the road u take, and take the consequence, its all depend on you. There is no word regrets for what u believe and choose, if u took one way then commit to it.. don't ever regret it, Thats what i mean with consequence.

In my journey, sometimes i mess up, and i cry, but i never regret every thing i do, cause thats my color, it show and made who i am right now, made me what i become. Though sometimes peoples said that i was wrong, and i'm a bitch, then let them said what they wanna says, for me my life is what i wanna do and what God will say about it, not what people says. if i fail i try to get up, and even if i fail again and again i try not givin up, and even my tears dropin out all the way, I always know my God watching over me and will see how i fight this life, so i guess i never afraid to fail, to cry, and to be hurt.

Let God be my jury and let Him decide my rights and wrong...

WHY

All this time... I though it will come to an end, an end like i wishes 2.. but i gues not every wishes i made come true, maybe i wish to hard, and i wish it in a wrong place, But dont answer my heart if it ment nothing, Coz from the start u know how i afraid to get hurt again.. Why u love me but u dont want me... Why...

The Past, Present and Future

Three things that have connection to each other. lots of things i wanna share about this three things.. but.. later maybe..

Forgive n Forgiven

Maybe i cant act or speak like an angel, maybe i never know how to express what i had inside, but its not right for u to judge me so unkindly, after all the time, after what we ever had before, its make me sad to heard it.

Lets forgive and forgiven, so the memories will stay beautiful.

Maybe i do u wrong, maybe once or two i hurt your heart, but lets close all the hurts and try to looked all the beautiful times we had back then, let me and let u close all the stories with open heart, no anger and no shallow.

Sarah McLachan - Answer...

I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
While you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
‘Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
And when the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
A place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
‘Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
And when the stars have all burned out
You'll still be burning so bright
Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind


For someone... in my heart

Manic Street - The Everlasting

The gap that grows between our lives
The gap our parents never had
Stop those thoughts control your mind
Replace the things that you despise
Oh youre old I hear you say
It doesnt mean that I dont care
I dont believe in it anymore
Pathetic acts for a worthless cause

In the beginning when we were winning
When our smiles were genuine
In the beginning when we were winning
When our smiles were genuine
But now unforgiven the everlasting
Everlasting

The world is full of refugees
Theyre just like you and just like me
But as people we have a choice
To end the void with all its force
So dont forget or dont pretend
Its all the same now in the end
It was set in a different life
Destroys my days and haunts my nights?

HHmmm...I liked this song alot..

And a youth said, "Speak to us of Friendship."

Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.
And he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace.
When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the "nay" in your own mind, nor do you withhold the "ay."
And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, you grieve not;
For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.
And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?
Seek him always with hours to live.
For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.
Khalil Gibran

Famous Quotations

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity...

----Forgot the writters------

Asa

Dawai Hati bersenandung,
dalam rangkaian nada jiwa,
Semburat rona tlah redamkan pucatnya jiwa,

Bagai irama yang teduhkan sukma,
memenuhi cangkir jiwaku,
lambungkan angan menuju mimpi.

Confuse

Feelin that makes me wonder... can it be exist and can it be true... i dont want to have this feelin, i avoid every reason to fall in love.. but guess i couldn't lie to my heart. Still i found it hard to admit, hard to believe.

Wet Wet Wet - Julia Says

Wet Wet Wet - Julia Says Lyrics

Here we go again, thru the backstreets of my mind
It seems my life was standing still
Who's sorry now, it's funny how I didn't know it

Here we go again, fighting things we never win
It seems our love was standing still I'm sorry now
It's funny how I don't feel the love
I just hear the words, julia says
She doesn't know what it's all about
She doesn't seem to care at all
Open your eyes and see
Love hurts
I won't be fooled again, looking for the dreams I couldn't find
The dreams for me were left behind
I'm sorry now, it's funny how
I don't feel the love
I just hear the words, julia says

She doesn't know what it's all about
She doesn't seem to care at all
Open your eyes and see, love hurts
Julia please, open your eyes and see

Julia wants to be on her own
Sharing her thoughts, she is all alone
Dreaming of the things she wants to be
Where julia don't belong
Julia said
She doesn't know what it's all about
She doesn't know, c'mon julia
She doesn't know, what it's all about
Julia... ... ...

THINK BEFORE YOU ACT!!!!!